In less than 48 hours I shall be in St. Jean Pied de Port. My backpack is all packed, and no matter how many times I keep checking it, I still cant help thinking I’ve forgotten something!
My pack is absolutely crammed full with no space for anything else. There will be a bit more room when I am on the Camino as my sleeping bag will be attached to the outside but for the flight I have tried to keep everything physically inside the backpack itself. The only thing on the outside is a foam roll mat for sleeping on which I will use at the airport (more on that further down). If the airline say that everything must be inside the baggage and not on the outside, I am quite happy to ditch the £5 roll mat and buy a replacement in Spain!
If asked, “are you ready for the Camino”, I would probably say no. Even though there are less than two whole days left until I fly, and even though my packing is done, my passport and EHIC are here etc etc, I really don’t feel ‘ready’. I am struggling with my agoraphobia more now than I have done for a long time. I am getting very anxious about going and am finding myself more and more doing that ‘avoidance’ rubbish that we agoraphobic people do when we don’t want to go out somewhere. On top of that I am worried about the amount of pain my hernias are giving me and am really hoping that I manage without any problems… Other than those two things though I am very excited about going and can’t wait to get stuck in and face my fears – its now or never!
I am spending the last couple of days in Stamford with my two daughters. It’s nice to spend some quality time with them before I leave and this afternoon we have put two sunflowers in the ground. One each, so they can see who’s grows the tallest and email me pictures of their progress!
Tomorrow evening they are dropping me off at Stamford train station to catch the 8 o’ clock train to Stansted airport. I know it’s a day early, kind of, but I’d rather get some sleep at the airport and then just roll my sleeping bag up and stroll over to check in, than be getting up at 2am to get a lift to the airport in time. Plus, I’ve never slept in an airport so it will be an adventure… erm, maybe…
If I can connect to the interweb from the airport I may post again from there but if not you wont hear from me again until I am on the Camino! Until then, hasta luego!